step one

step one

these are the 20 week ultrasound pictures of my five precious grandsons

i've always kept them on the table next to my bed.

i've moved them to a shelf in the livingroom where i will see them all day long.

and where everyone who comes into my home will see them.  

i've printed out and framed this prayer

this is step one.

watching a video of a pastor preaching about abortion

he said these undercover videos of planned parenthood employees talking about selling dead baby parts  ......had undone him..........

i'm undone too.  saying i'm prolife is no longer enough. just wearing a tee shirt with a logo is not enough.  i have never done enough.  i have never prayed enough.  i have never spoken out enough.

55 million dead babies since roe v wade.  not to mention the one who died before.

if thats not bad enough.....if killing your child is not bad enough.....dealing in dead baby parts....

i'm rambling

my thoughts are all over the place, but my focus right now is going to be on prayers.

God is showing me that i can't be silent.  i know that. i've been silent too long.  

55 million.  just think about that............

some of those 55 million are family members.  and i was silent.   

i don't yet know what i'm going to do.  

people have been praying, protesting, loving

and yet 55 million dead  and no remorse.

*disclaimer for anyone who is wondering:  i have never had an abortion and when i say family i am referring to my extended family, not my children.

stop the slaughter

i know someone who had a late term abortion.

i don't blame her.  i blame those who suggested it and insisted on it being the only option.
i blame it on those who are part of the generation of liberation and ignorance.

i'm grateful for the fact that i was conceived and born before Roe v Wade.
otherwise i'm pretty sure there would be a significant chance that i would not be here to write this.

this is sad.

there is mercy and forgiveness for those who repent of their actions.
but there is no mercy or forgiveness for those who continue with the lies and deception of what is really going on here.
to take pride in the taking of an innocent life is the ultimate in depravity.
it's not "tissue"
its a human being with a beating heart.

i have been guilty of turning my head and looking the other way.
saying that i am pro-life is just lip service.
they are just words.
what do i do to show it?
i've never been tested by this.
life is wonderful in my little bubble world.

i can't save the world.
but can i save just one baby?
can i be more than just about words?

i know that the number one thing i am called to do is to pray.
nothing is more important than calling on God and seeking His will and His wisdom.

this is a good beginning.
a starting point.

there are other ideas and/or habits i've been kicking around.
i'll share them here when i get some solid plan.

all i know right now is that i was angry.
then i was sad.
and now i'm angry, sad, and determined.

i'm embarrassed to say that it took news of an abortion mill selling baby parts to wake me up.
but i'm awake now and i'm promising not to sleep again.