old ladies and social media ineptness

so, just when i think i have this "privacy" thing under control on facebook, and i feel confident "juggling" who sees what...............

i slip up and a few people see a post that wasn't meant for them to see.

one of these people was my son.  it wasn't anything bad, this thing i posted.  it was the ultrasound of my 7th grandbaby.  i was going to share it with the people i had already told about it. (posted that without any trouble a couple weeks earlier)

but i was careless.  it was only up for 10 minutes, i didn't tag anyone, but then someone tagged a comment and that's when i realized my mistake.

however.......................

by then my son saw it and instead of texting me, he tore me up on facebook.  (disrespectful children is an end times sign, isn't it? )

so an old lady momma made a facebook Faux pas and a son broke his mothers heart.  i know that's an over exaggeration........children break their mothers hearts over and over and over again.......and if they have a good momma they never even know it.........just ask the dads......they will tell you straight up the truth.

now.....

the rest of this post addresses the disrespect part.  we didn't do the best job we could have in teaching our kids some things.  mostly because we were still learning.    but speaking in a disrespectful manner was never tolerated.  i don't even remember it ever being an issue when they were growing up.

when i saw his words on facebook, i saw a little boy throwing a tantrum.  and at the same time that i was getting all upset over his tirade, i was forgiving him because that's what mommas do.  he has so much to learn in life and i for one know that.

its been a lot of years since we had any influence on his life.  we weren't done raising him yet when he moved from our circle of influence into another circle of influence.  it happens when kids grow up. so  i won't totally take the blame for his disrespectful attitude.  i will share it with the influences he has had for the last twelve years.

as a mom of grown and married children i don't always like what i see or hear.  and for every one thing i may mention, there are probably ten things i'm holding in.  respectfully.

well, back to my social media ineptness.....

i have deactivated my facebook for the next week....at least.....i'm hoping i can break that dirty fb habit.  i won't delete it because i have some awesome friends there.
but i'd like to do something else with my computer time.....like blogging!

we are all slaves to the media

michelle obama.......i even hate to write that name.......slaves built the white house.
why the controversy?
does she think that americans,who should know their history, wouldn't already know that?
and that the rest should just make that assumption?
it was the 1800's and it was in the south.
..............so here we go again............if not for the slaves we would not have a white house in d.c..........................................i can live with that.
how long, as a country, do we have to pay for the sins of our forefathers?
forever?
or until the roles are reversed and people of lighter skin color, those of european descent, are made into slaves?
(historically speaking its already been done...check your facts on this one)
now, i admit i live in a white world.  it has way more to do with culture than skin color.  i would venture to say that it has everything to do with culture and in no way is related to skin color.
what's wrong with that?
i'm white.  (although i prefer "pinkish")

barak obama......another name i am loathe to write or say.....
turned out to be a divider and not a uniter.  it's a shame because unless we can get back to where we were and continue to move forward in a positive direction, then we are doomed as a country.
the country, and by that i mean people, that i live in does not want anyone to be subserviant to another.

we let examples of bad behavior fuel the hate all around us.  it's sad.  i've never seen people so paranoid, and angry, and scared at the same time.  (this is on the media because all is well on the wink)
when you hear things coming out of thse BLM protests like "kill the whites!"  "kill their children!"
gah!!!!!!!!!!  what did i ever do to you?????
i'm at the point that no matter what i write or say, it will be misconstrued as rascist.
i just want to live in peace with all people as much as it depends on me.  just like scripture says.

therefore, i work hard to take care of my family and home and i'm too busy to stir up strife.
i suggest all those protestors do the same:  go home and work hard at something.  raise your family and have pride in your accomplishments.
that is what the majority of americans are trying to do.

if not for the media this all would work out. the media stirs people up.  it creates controversy and nothing ever gets solved.

let's all just tune out for a while and see what happens.

ahhhhhhh!

i made it to ten pounds!
and i'm in maintaining mode......i guess........
i'm eating healthy and trying not to eat to much in the evenings.
i haven't been walking too much the last week or two.  i've been having pain in my achilles. yuck. not good.  i'm going to see if i just stretch and rest for a couple of weeks if it gets better.

the reasons i keep going

this is absolutely amazing

week off aftermath

i'm still at it!!!!  week before last i took a week off from micro managing my food and exercise.  i purposefully did not weigh in for a week after that ended and i was still at a 9 lb. loss.  that was last week.  i haven't weighed in this week.  i think i'm going to try to not do it until friday.

i'm still keeping track of everything and exercising.  now that the weather is nicer there are many more opportunities to hike and garden.

i FEEL so much better, even though its just been 9 lbs.  imagine how i will feel when i've lost it all!
wow, i will probably just float away.

we have committed ourselves to do at least 10 hikes in Acadia National Park this season.  #1 is done
on sunday we hike The Great Head Trail

The Great Head Trail is an easy hike around a peninsula that juts out into the ocean.  there is very little elevation gain and the hike was about 2 miles at the most. (we left from sand beach parking lot and returned across the beach).

tomorrow i am going to an Autism walk in Bar Harbor so that should be about 2 miles on flat roads. oh, and its supposed to rain.  ugh.    

as long as i'm being scattered.................

garden

this year i have one less long bed because we took it away to fit the chicken coop and the enclosure (which is not enclosed yet)  so we will be extending the bed all the way on the left and building another smaller one in this area.

i'm getting very close to getting my chicks.  we've gotten this far on the brooder box (thats a light sitting on top of the wire.  i went with a Brinsea ecoglow brooder to simulate the warmth of a mama chicken.  i'm afraid of heat lamps & i love my house.  the plan is to get 6 chicks and they will outgrow this in a few weeks and then we will go to plan b (whatever that is)

exciting times on the wink!

crazy busy

i don't have a lot of time because i need to go for my walk before i get totally distracted by my day and time slips away.

i've upped my walk to 3 miles--60 minutes, and thats where its going to stay.  that burns approx. 400 calories for me at the moment and that is perfect.

i weighed in on friday and i had lost 9 lbs!!!  then easter weekend with some extra eating and CANDY, so i'm going to be either happy or sad come this friday.  but i'm not going to let it derail me.

the perfect numbers for me seem to be 1600 tops calories with 400 burned.  i lose weight and i'm not hungry.  i'm trying to stick to this goal.

i am a fan of eating a good percentage of my food as raw food.  i don't cook veggies as a general rule.
once a week i buy a lot of produce and then clean and chop everything into containers for salad.  then i can top them with my protein.

i try to use approx 50 % organic.  i heard once that the health benefits of the vegetables balanced it out.  i'm not going to say that is true or not, but in the winter when nothing is growing here in maine you have to do the best you can with the resources at hand.

i'm up to 3 containers full of mostly veggies and good greens.  the fourth container is my husbands (he doesn't like ALL of those veggies!)  the last salad is usually as fresh as the first as long as you are using fresh ingredients to start with.

                                                                   a beautiful thing.

this is my favorite salad combination.  french fried onions, gorgonzola cheese, dried cranberries, vidalia onion dressing.  all things measured--ALWAYS!

                                      another beautiful thing--my sweet grand baby sophie!

focusing more on myself

thats what i need to do:  focus more on ME

it doesn't come naturally, but if i'm going to do this thing.  this get healthy, be healthy, lose weight thing......then i have to do it.

i didn't weigh in this morning.  not because i'm afraid to.  i just didn't think of it.  i don't want to be sooo focused on that number on that scale that i become obsessed and then sick of it.

i'm still tweaking things.  still trying to figure out how to get enough protein without eating tons of dairy because i'm not a big meat eater.
i read about quinoa this weekend.  about how its really high in protein for a grain.  turns out i have some in the cupboard so i'm going to cook it and try adding it as one of my vegetable salad toppings.

i've been trying to put beans (black and garbanzo) on my salads.  for dairy its usually gorgonzola or shredded cheddar.

i've decided that i like to chew so smoothies are a no go for breakfast with me.  lol.

i have decided to up the walking to 3 miles this week.  starting today......and its snowing....we are at about  ehh 7 inches?  so i'll do my indoor walk dvd.  they are a 15 min mile pace which is faster than i walk outdoors.

so here is where i'm at (since this post is all over the place)

eating:  need to up my protein.  i don't seem to have a problem with most breakfasts being 300 calories at the most.  keeping snacks at 300 is very challenging but i'm working on it.

exercising:  walking is going well despite this sciatica.  we even went for a long hike on saturday and i survived!  i need to keep track of how many times a week i actually meet my goal on fitness and excercise.  if i'm entering it all on sparkpeople then its being plotted, but i don't enter stuff 7 days a week.

last time i weighed i was down about 6 lbs. that was last wednesday.  i feel like i've done pretty good so i'm just going to keep moving forward. and if i have a set back, whether it be eating some jelly beans or being lazy for a day, i will not let it determine the outcome.

a full life

i didn't update last monday because i ate A LOT  of good stuff on sunday.  the kids cooked food and made an awesome coconut cake for my birthday.

however on wednesday i jumped on the scale and found that i had lost 6 pounds.  6 pounds in 6 weeks. not too shabby.

i have no trouble sticking with the goal of keeping breakfast to 300 calories.  the exercising goal i've been doing well with also.  the eating after 7 pm i only struggle with on the two days i work because my schedule is 9-7 and i want a snack when i get home.  keeping snacks for the day to 300 is also a challenge.  as these were my four goals i am going to just keep working at them until they just come naturally and i don't HAVE to think about them.

we went away this weekend and also ate good food and probably a little too much, but i really tried to eat less than i normally would have.  however, i'm not weighing myself today and i'm going to try to not weigh until next monday.

the magic numbers that i have figured out by using the sparkpeople site, are to keep my calories eaten at about 1600 or less and my calories burned by exercise at about 400.  that gives me the perfect number of 1200 which should allow me to lose at least 2 lbs a week.  however that is only if i don't eat too many calories later in the day.

i'm not going to make any new goals for this week.